@wanderingleaf i boosted and i am interested in having the same insight. I am thinking of moving, find a different place, maybe involving or not intentional communities.

Scared about ageism (not finding work to sustain myself, not finding friends etc).

And i moved here with 27 and it is still difficult to deal with xenophobia, ranging from mild and well intended condescending, to quite dangerous and disturbing. I am not sure if i can relearn a new coping mechanism to the othering mechanisms of a new place/culture.

Over 50 here. Have articulation pain here and there, and exhaustion, probably covid related. But i dont feel my brain is less flexible or slower. Actually i think i learn faster, if i want, than in my 20s. And more curious and interested. I just dont want to kearn a lof of things i consider bs.

So yeah. I cant control the thing i am scared of. Which is people.