conservatism in my opinion is about “keeping the systems that control others in place”.
This sounds like you wanting to keep control over your systems in place.
Similar sounding, but completely different.
A 2018 comment by one Frank Wilthoit defined conservatism sublimely:
“Conservatism consists of exactly one proposition, to wit:
There must be in-groups whom the law protect[s] but does not bind, alongside out-groups whom the law binds but does not protect.”
https://crookedtimber.org/2018/03/21/liberals-against-progressives/#comment-729288