@eri i grew up in a 6k town by one of the wealthiest farming areas in the world. the experiences before i came out were pretty horrendous. at high school a group of boys chased me down on the way home and shot me in the head with a hunting slingshot. much later on i got assaulted and robbed, and the assailant tried to drag me into an alleyway. he was from out of town but he obviously thought it was a good place to target me. so i lived with these sorts of experiences just from being a queer kid and adult in the back of my mind.it was hard to get medical care of any sort, and i had to travel to the city for months to get on HRT. people in positions of responsibility had a callous attitude.but honestly the worst thing was living in a parental home with no other options. getting misgendered and having shitty mental health. dealing with unrealistic economic expectations stuck in the past, and not feeling valued.that town had me suicidal from the moment i woke up.